Maybe I like being self-centered, ever think of that?

I...I...Don't know where to start sometimes. If I open my mouth without thinking I get myself into trouble, If I sit and think about it nothing gets done. Pretty conflicting if you as me. I used to think I had down the art of communication done to a tea. But now I am left to rethink and yes, regret. I keep telling myself these days that love is a dream, and if it should come to me then I will count my blessings. I don't need it to breathe, and it surely comes after university. So it's in there somewhere. Right where I want it?

I like the way I think, I'm not going to be pushed around to satisfy another persons conflicting ideals. I have my head screwed on and I will be damned if anyone wants to screw it up. I'm the one who's going to be the defensive asshole this time buddy. If you can't meet the quota then stand-down. I have always been he one who trys to live up to other peoples expectations. Well now it's your turn to meet mine. I will probably never find love this way but I don't care at this point of time.

I am angry, hurt and refuse to be ordered around like some half-brain twit.

I never asked anything from nobody. I demand nothing.

Why does it always have to be like this? I was doing just fine being alone and I will continue being just fine. I'm sick of understanding people, I want someone to understand me.

I am a good person, someone taught me that.