A cushion and a rock

With each day I'm finding it harder to breathe
Sitting here, thinking about what you and I need
In you I found hope
A one track mind, a slippery slope

Trust doesn't come by easy these days
Hard to let go, still finding the way
I already know if I let go all
I'm gonna fall

Where will I land, are you following, do you understand?
I need a cushion and a rock
Someone there for me when I reach the top

It's been a month now
A million bubbles of thoughts and how

It was only for fun

Why you got to make a short story long?
Don't you know I'm switched on?

You're right about one thing though
I don't understand, I overstand
So don't try to tip-toe

The point
Your playing people like a puppet
And they just look like a muppet

I ain't into Jealousy
Just causes Controversy

You dip into me like an ink well
To write the next chapter
Making mens groins grow fatter
Use me as you please,
Next minute I'm a disease
Then expect me to laugh and say "Isn't this swell?"

The cream has turns sour
Soon as you loose power
No longer the bird of the hour
So you sulk and cower

I ain't here to make you feel bad
These feelings getting me sad
I'm on my hands and knees begging you please
Realise beauty comes from within
So stop looking out and start looking in

You give out false hope
Like it's heroine, crack cocaine and dope
Keep upping the dosage
To satisfy the sausage

You juggle so many balls
Soon as one starts to fall
Your there in a flash
There for the cash

"I got free this, free that"
I'm always skint but there's always Matt,
Or Tony, Craig and fucking postman Patt

Where you want pearls, there's a string of men
That you keep going back to again and again
Warm in your fingertips
Just of of reach from those juicy lips

You showed me how to sway
And keep em at bay
Away
Treat em like fruit
The two finger salute
But shake your ass
As you pass

My fear, my dear
Is one night, when you've caused a fight
Defending someone else's honour
Your on a rapists sonar

How can you cry to me
When it was plain to see
You stirred the wrong prick
He wanted to lay the brick, the pipe and shaft you with his stick

They got the right tools, don't play em for fools
Don't you know, surprise sex
Is probably from your ex
Someone you know or just met
Or that really nice guy Brett?

Your playing with fire, making yourself feel higher
Girl I tell you now
That ain't how

Jealous Hitches

I can argue till I'm black and blue
but what's the point, I still won't get through

I'm tired of all the games
Being shouted at, called names
You walk away
Do I go there, or shall I stay?

You only tell me half the truth
Swear it's right and here's the proof
Tell me I've seen a few pages of the book
But I'm smart you see and
I can tell by that look she gave me
What she's thinking
And how much she's been drinking
That there's tension in the air
And worried about who the fuck cares

So she'll walk away, turn her back
and have a game of tit for tat

I ain't into Jealousy
Cause every time it causes Controversy
They say I'm not a mate
That I don't understand the hate
And I should close my eyes, ears and mouth
Or else, head South

I'll pack my bags
Cause I'm sick of being handed rags
Maybe I ain't a mate
Maybe this is fate

This could have ended so differently
If only we share some empathy
We're in the same boat
Trying to stay afloat
But why you got to put holes
Right through to the bottom of my soul?

I ain't into Jealousy
Cause every time it causes Controversy
They say I'm not a mate
That I don't understand the hate
And I should close my eyes, ears and mouth
Or else, head South

Don't you know about these games women play?
Should I go, or should I stay?
Are you a mate
Or should I hate?
If I can't win, I'll throw you in the bin

Then I'll tell all my good friends
all my, Barbie and Kens
What a nasty girl you are, and to
Stay clear and far

You twist my words like spaghetti
And make me out like a Yeti
But I can re-call, I'm no fool
Yet I stand and stare
While you tell me there
Of things that never happened
In that split second


This has gone too far
You want to tarnish and mare
It's in a state of disrepair
I can only try to repair what's there


I ain't into Jealousy
Cause every time it causes Controversy
They say I'm not a mate
That I don't understand the hate
And I should close my eyes, ears and mouth
Or else, head South

Livin da High Life

You didn't notice how nervous I was that night, but I didn't say.
You didn't notice how much I needed your arms around me, but it's ok.
You didn't notice how patiently I was waiting for you, I will keep waiting and anticipating

You didn't notice because you were occupied
You didn't notice because you were looking for somewhere to hide
Your mind is somewhere else I cannot reach
Hold on, I might have something to teach

You think you're not ready,
full of doubt thinking "what happens if we go steady",
already preparing me to say goodbye from day one,
"but hey, let's have fun"

You're in a hurry, but your going nowhere fast.
Slow down. Don't beat yourself up over the past.

So much to give, yet the flow is interrupted
I meander with you, I pull back when you push to hard, I lean in when you pull back, I melt when I feel you melt.

The hardest part is taking it easy
Re-learning how to come across as breezy
You know what you don't want, but you don't know what you do want
You are half way there
and... I care
You figure it out along the way, give yourself time

Worrying, panicking and confused thoughts take you back,
that's a fact
So just breathe, and you will will relieved
how fast is your heart beating?
Pay attention, are you in comfortable seating?


I don't have the answers for all your questions, if we put our heads together, we could figure it out.

Bring me closer, inch by inch.
Hold me gently and I won't flinch
Look into my eyes
and you might be surprised
to find a deeper connection
and so much love and affection

Happy Valentines Day sweetheart

You might not be able to see to stars from the city...but they are still there

I lay awake with last nights events running through my head. A night of discovery I am sure. Where is the line between good and bad between a father and son, there can never be an infinite. I am here, you are there. Where shall the two meet? I am right here. I can not go any further, i would lose part of myself if i journeyed any closer. You are right there, yet I can not see you you. You tell me of the adventures you have had and I am there with you, but a flash of clarity and it glazes over forever to be lost it seems. I ask nothing of you. I wait patiently until a clear sky. For when the stars burn longerly into my soul, when the skies are black, I can place them just as I remembered them. I dream of those sapphire nights which wrap themselves around me. The warmth from a star will fuel me for a lifetime. I go no further now, and I will wait and watch. Will this be a giant or a dwarf. I am here.